Once again, I found myself looking for an answer, a solution, a key.
Once more, I realize I am lost. Forever lost. Just as I have always been.

What I failed to realize though,
is that being lost doesn't necessarily mean I don't know where to go,
it just means I haven't gotten there yet.

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The symbolism of the 'Door', and the choices I have to make are real.
The Time I have left and the Time I waste by not making the choice is also real.
The consequences are real.
But in the end, they are all mine, for I am real amd I make them real.

They all exist because they have too, my existence justifies it.
It doesn't mean the world revolves around me, it just means that everything is connected.
It means that everything that we know and we come to understand as real or unreal actually exists because we do.

A dream of dragons and faeries, some may see it as a fairy tale, others will shun the idea and others will believe it. Whether its real or not, it already exists. An idea, a concept, a fantasy or another world, we can never really know but as its there, then in some way it must be real.

Something can be so abstract to one person but so clear to another, that alone justifies its existence. Thoices one person must make is a force of infinite power for what may affect us one way, can affect another person another way.

'Dreams aren't real', some may say, but does that mean that it's impossible to become real.
Anything that exists has a purpose, whether they are real or not.

I could say "Pink fluffy dinosaur that recites shakespeare while wiping his nose with a bicycle."
It makes no sense right? But I thought of it, there for it exists, just not on our plain, not yet.

The point I want people to realize is that concepts, ideas and dreams exist and are real and . Just because something may seem impossible that doesn't mean that it is. It's only impossible because we live in a world based on rules and we have lived believing these rules.

The funny thing is, these rules are just like our ideas, we believe them so they become real and standard. Even the dinosaurs and animals existed with bodies that conformed to these rules, rules that were real because 'somebody' thought it would be easier for life if it had some limits to live on.

Limits that began as ideas, ideas added with infinite power and a little pushing of the right cosmic buttons, to create an invisible but existing concept.
It's like the power of people to affect one another unconsciously by making a choice, for instance:

"Guy robs a bank-- shoots one man-- victim's family holds a funeral-- relative who lives in another country leaves work to visit funeral--the firm he works for loses a day of profit--because of a loss of profit, the firm has to pull out all its savings from an account in sweden--the bank in sweden somehow goes bankrupt because of one company's bank run, thus firing workers--one fired worker commits suicide--suicide's family holds a funeral--relative from somewhere goes to the funeral, losing a day of work...etc etc etc.

Now, that's just with something that can happen, imagine if it was an idea that's being passed around. The idea of creating a clone said as a joke by one guy, picked up by another guy and another guy, and another guy until it reaches somebody who incidentally has the ability to do just that.

The point is, everything exists, and everything exists for a purpose, may it be an absurd dream or a fantasy about a flying slug that easts people, or a goal to become a prince in some unchartered country, as long as it's an IDEA, it has the potential to be made real, with the right push of the infinite power that connects people--no, the power that connects the universe together, it affects people, and eventually, the idea will meet people that can make it become real.

Thus everything, and I mean everything is possible and all things from dreams to fantasies, because they exist, as ideas or thoughts, connect to all things, and as they affect one another from one cosmic level to another, they become real. All that's needed, is for the idea to exist, once it does, it already affects the entire universe, and because it exists, it becomes real.

If you believe that 'real' is something you can touch and taste, see or hear...
You must be missing alot. The reality of things can't be measured, the reality of the universe can't be measured, the mouse in your hand--the extent of how real it is can't be measured but it affects everything you do onthe computer, just like the universe can affect everything else.
It exists and thus it instantly causes reactions from everything else, but what more when its pushed in a certain direction, just like an idea.

My existence began as an idea, an idea that affected alot of people, and because I was an idea--that meant I already existed, thus I was real before I was made real. Now, my existence has reached out to so many people and I don't know how but I know I have. My ordering lunch at a restaurant can change the world of so many people alone.
The world does not revolve around me, people or anything else. The world is not what's movin, its just the universe and the infinite divine power that connects and puts the universe together, and because the universe of things is full of ideas, everything within the universe is affected by the ideas, no matter if they are seen as ridiculous or fantasy--because they are ideas, they exist and everything that exists is real.

Then that must mean that there's no such thing as impossible, there's no such thing unreal or unexisting, for all things exist. Yes, even death is an idea that exists, so is Time.
Things can never stop existing, things can die but never stop existing, time can't stop existing, people can't stop existing-- they can live out their lives but they will always exist as memories, or ideas, and somehow because of that fact--they can exist again as ghosts or souls or spirits, things that some people don't belive to be real but actually exist.

There is no such thing as impossible or unreal.
All things will continue to exist forever, in one way or another.
They will exist because they have to exist to keep the universe and everything connected.
They will exist because sometimes people have to believe that they don't exist, thus setting a new set of ideas to circulate through out the universe.

It will never end, it will never stop, to exist is to be real, to be real means to once have been an idea, to once have been an idea only means that it was born from another set of ideas that exist.

I guess the real question is, how can all this have come to be, what started it, what started what started it? and so on. Is there any real answer?


--next time--- The meaning of ' end.'