How does one picture one's self, internally?

What is the truth of what we think lies inside, beyond the barriers of the flesh and at the center of our being?

What is it we see in the very depths of our confused and unadulterated subconscious that we can't seem to remember them or explain them?

What is the point of all these questions?

Hehehheheee...


I have seen the insides of my subconscious...

For most, it's a library with sections dedicated to the many aspects of the said person's life.

Myself however, is another world altogether.


In that world, is a vast city, a complete replica of the country I live in....Only empty.....in black and white....and it's night....

....an eternity of night.....



Each part of this world supposedly contains my essence, pieces of me that make up me.

It's a world of silence and desolution, with my memories, my emotions, dreams, and nightmares, scattered across this plain of reality only to be locked behind a door. A plain old everyday, white wood door.

And there are millions of doors in the world, so what more with mine?

Simple, it's all a matter of faith and believing that you've opened the right door, and if it isn't the right door?


Just close it.


It's one thing to open it, it's another to walk through it.


Now hearing this, people would say that i've been reading too much or that i've watching too much horror movies or that maybe, i've been playing too much videogames...hehehehehe.....here's a surprise for you....

I have been doing all these things too much....but.....this world in my mind, has existed even longer than that..

Til now, I am confused so much by this alternate universe residing within me, it's so simple yet complex at the same time.

So why bother with that fake world, why not live this one reality we are in right now?


Perhaps because this world of reality and mine are actually connected, perhaps both are real, perhaps both are fake...

No one can trully say. If there is anything at all that's real, then it's this...

"As long as you Understand that you exist, then that's what's real. For now."


I have all always made it a point to live for the present and plan for the future while at the same time acknowledging the past.

This applies for the two worlds I live in, my reality, and this shared reality we are all in right now.





Oh, did I forget to mention that in my reality, I am never alone.

There are things in there that even I can't describe...

....or Explain....

A mass of horrors and disgruntled abominations and deformities of things that were and never will be again....

But there are those that I can explain...There are those I long to see once more...There are those that smile, when I see them.

This is my world, and I don't believe a single person if they say that they don't have one as well. You just have to close your eyes.....


And look.



So what does the very depth of your subconscious look like? Don't try too hard to see it, just see it.


One more final:

To those who walk into the minds of others, entering their world without consent or permission, I tell you this now.

A mind is a horrible thing to waste, and a soul is something so precious that it has to be protected.

Every person has their own way of dealing with intruders that into their private space.

And when they get you, they will hurt you...



The mind can do so much when threatened.